"I had to.

As a biracial kid in a predominantly white environment, I was constantly answering the question, “What are you?” Being a bookworm, I turned to texts like The Color of Wealth at fourteen years old. My formative memories of being asked to categorize myself based on others’ inability to identify my ancestry led me to Africana Studies and racial justice organizing. By studying history, I understood that “If Black women were free, it would mean that everyone else would have to be free, since our freedom would necessitate the destruction of all systems of oppression” (Combahee River Collective).

Like many high-performing Asian kids, my mental health challenges went undetected. During my first year of undergrad, centuries of intergenerational trauma erupted within me. My and my ancestors’ grief and rage overflowed through my soma. I dropped out of college and went no-contact with my family of origin.

Desperate to remedy the ache in my bones and spirit, I sought out the ancient mysteries of my paternal lineage in rural Taiwan. My astrological birth chart clearly shows that my life path is about ancestral reconnection and healing, and I’ve gone about it with varying degrees of skill and care. At twenty years old, I was newly aware of myself as a queer and non-binary person. The culture clash between a US-raised gender and sexual minority with Taiwanese religious structures was intense.

Long story short, I left Taiwan deeply traumatized and full of shame. The weight of generational pain was so unbearable that I couldn’t sleep through the night. As a college dropout, I struggled to meet my basic needs for food and shelter. Ifá, Thien Hau Temple, and recovery communities carried me to the point of re-applying to college in 2015.

At Brown, I was blessed to learn closely from the brilliant Dr. Keisha-Khan Y. Perry (my advisor), Professor Elmo Terry-Morgan, and the late great Professor Anani Dzidzienyo. Along with rest of the incredible Africana Studies faculty, they trained me in critical Black Studies knowledge and methods. This helped me understand the current world system and learn from the best practices of freedom fighters across time.

With an undergraduate degree, I was then able to begin Chinese medical studies at Yo San University. Along with my Daoist healing training through the College of Tao and Parting Clouds Daoist education, I have been filling my toolbox with medical and energetic strategies to address the embodied and spiritual trauma of systemic oppression.

I have lived the truth that ancestral healing can unlock purpose and joy even in the most painful, tragic ancestral histories.

One tenet of ancestral healing is acceptance that the past cannot be changed, but we can transform our lives by changing how we relate to that past. I can’t change the years I and my ancestors lost to hurting ourselves and others. I can’t undo the mistakes I’ve made on my ancestral healing path. Yet by sharing the lessons I’ve gained from all of the above, I can help others avoid my errors.

One of my primary spiritual protectors is Mazu, goddess of the South China Sea. She famously guides boats to safety in rough waters. As someone who almost drowned in my ancestral trauma, I am a navigator familiar with these seas.”

Theoretical rigor: Africana critical thought is the foundation. The macroeconomic, ontological, and socio-historical structures of the past millennium systematically cause intergenerational trauma. Everything we do stems from this reality.

Daoist Metaphysics: We draw from Camellia’s training in the 5,000+ year-old medical traditions of China to address the spiritual and somatic effects of systemic intergenerational trauma. We do not mix-and-match between a grab-bag of decontextualized New Age modalities. We are in ongoing reciprocal relationships with living lineage bearers who are themselves descendants of unbroken medicine families. We am accountable to them directly.

Healing Justice: We honor Kara Page and the Kindred Healing Justice Collective for coining this term, which is central to our practice. Rather than offering “wellness“ as an individualized, boutique commodity based on vibes, we see systemic violence as the cause and reparative work as the solution. We channel our anger and grief over structural violence into acts of life-affirming love and care.

Citation is a radical care practice. For our fellow nerds, here is Camellia’s intellectual lineage. In addition to Afro-pessimism, womanism, Black feminism, political science, and Africana critical theory, we draw upon:

• Andragogy: Adult Learning Theory

• Chinese herbalism and meridian theory through 5+ years of training at Yo San University of Traditional Chinese Medicine

• Culturally competent care

• Daoism through Camellia’s father, their 12+ years at Thien Hau Temple, and studies at the College of Tao and International Taoist Meditation Institute since 2020

• Direct oral history study and fieldwork on Candomblé in Salvador da Bahia with Iya Dona Cici

• Epigenetics

• Micro, Meso, Macro Approaches

• Polyvagal Theory

• Public Health Behavior Change Models

• Social determinants of health

• Trauma-informed care

• 10+ years of study of isese under Oluwo Falokun Fasegun Ogunkeye and Iya Fayomi Osundoyin Egbeyemi domestically, and Chief Olota Egungun ati Olota Biiri Agba of Eposo land Prince Dr. Oluwo Falolu Adesanya Awoyade in Ibadan, Oyo State, Nigeria. This includes sefa and idosu.